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HeadSpace original In defense of regret. An exploratory personal essay on something we assume to be negative. To regret deeply is to live afresh. When she is sad so is everything around her; and when she laughs so does the air, so do you.
Sometimes I fear how connected I am to her happiness, how dependent I am on it to function normally. As individuals we are at once very similar and so very very different. As a couple we are at times dysfunctional, volatile, and so at odds with one another that we drive each other to the edge of madness, questioning what the hell we are doing here.
But never, not even in the ugliest of moments, did I ever truly believe that I could live without her. She brought me kicking and screaming from a lifetime of selfishness and self-involvement.
Slapped me in the face and forced me to look in the mirror so many times that I hardly recognized my reflection. To say that I am a better person for having her in my life would be a very serious Essay about regrets.
But still I hurt her. Brought her to tears and left her with scars. Played my part in our end. On some days the cloud is dark. On others I barely see it at all. There is a grinding, dull throb of long-term interest that you pay in perpetuity, so taxing I doubt we would ever err if we knew then what we know now.
There is something in the way, lingering. And since that time so long ago I have made the point to measure the decades of continued effort, the positive qualities, the paternal love always there. Despite his infuriating flaws I know he has done what he can in the only way he knows how.
So then what is it? Is it the stark contrast in our personalities? The persistent family dramas? But what is certain is that when that inescapable time in the not so distant future comes, when I sit down beside his bed and hold his frail hand, I know that something will still be there and that it will be too late.
The peace will not be perfect and I feel terrible about it. It happened to me without my consent and so the responsibility does not lie with me. I now know the final outcome and so bear some of the burden for not stopping it from happening.
Regret, you see, is flexible.
Ready to be there for you in any way you may need it. A selfish word to a friend. These are sometimes the hardest weeds to get rid of. Passing harsh judgment on someone instead of asking yourself why. Allowing insecurity to take the reigns and speak up for you.
We make these mistakes because we are human and are learning as we go.
But since these missteps are small we allow them to slip by and survive, supposedly unnoticed, thinking that they leave no mark. We believe ourselves masters of deception, especially when it comes to self-deceit. Able to cast a veil and snap a finger and make what we just said or did disappear from existence.
We are indeed marked each and every time. And these small misdemeanours are no less toxic than any of the big fancy mistakes we like to stake lifelong claims to. These undersized indiscretions build and fester, becoming that much more virulent because we secretly know that we are burying them.
Guilt is just the attention-grabber wearing the short red dress. It is a more instant and intense feeling and so easier to take her home with you. Guilt is a negative emotion that arises from knowing you did something wrong at that moment. Focusing on guilt tends to keep the view narrow and in a self-centered present tense.
It is inward-looking and carries a persistent bad feeling toward oneself; not necessarily toward the action or the person you harmed.All Nonfiction Bullying Books Academic Author Interviews Celebrity interviews College Articles College Essays Educator of the Year Heroes Interviews Living With No Regrets; Living With No.
Reflective Essay: Life's Regrets 2 Pages. Words. We all do things in life that we regret. We also do things in life that make us proud of the people that we are.
Still, there are things in life that we hope to someday be able to do. All of these things make up who we are and how we've come to be ourselves.
Regrets Regrets are the most painful thing to think about. Couple nights ago, I was suffering from insomnia, lying on bed and thinking back about what my past, I found out that I have missed so many things and didn’t really fight for what I want. Unlike most editing & proofreading services, we edit for everything: grammar, spelling, punctuation, idea flow, sentence structure, & more.
Get started now! The Regrets of a Time Gone By - The Regrets of a Time Gone By Poetry is a language of understanding. The reader must be able to comprehend the various known connotations for words as well as be able to pick up on the uncommon and unknown meanings of words.
Untitled by Jasper Johns; part of the Jasper Johns: Regrets exhibition at MoMA. Whenever I think of regret, I think of The Last Unicorn, in which the protagonist, a unicorn, is magically transformed into a human girl and learns the meaning of regret, an emotion unicorns are not familiar torosgazete.com a child, I was sad to think that not only would the unicorn now know the bitter taste of regret, she.